I am grateful Oakes has been such a delight and loving sweet boy. In the last day or so he has started to have the tiniest little sass about him which is so very out of character for him that it has helped me see just how very sweet he really is. He is so much fun and I am so grateful he is there to brighten my days when it gets to be too much for me. He has taken so much from me as it seems like he has been pruning me into something I didn’t think I wanted. Perhaps he is here to help me cleanse my soul that I never wanted to be cleansed since the experiences from the past gave me the appreciation for the incredible life I now have. Maybe I need to let go of the pain of the past but it is also such an incredible reminder of how much I love my family and how incredible they are whether I could see that or not. Alma saved me from a life of sadness. Not all sadness but the deep depths of despair sadness that is beyond description. The sadness I pray other people never find out about or have to experience for themselves. He saved my life without knowing it at the time and continues to every time I see real love in his eyes. I love him so much. I want to bless him with anything I have to offer him. I am so grateful he’s willing to have this life of adventure with me even though he’s more mature than the silly things he sees me do. I just love him and want to have fun with him and see him laugh and play too.
Learning to love life one moment at a time
