Sometimes life itself does not feel kind but it amazes me when I still happen to see someone that still has kindness left in them. It amazes me. I am so grateful to see people who can be kind in their general demeanor. None of us can do it all of the time but when someone really needs a look or hello with kindness it really can make all the difference in giving someone hope to keep going.
Some people don’t struggle with big emotions. I am so happy for them. That sounds really great – must be nice. Though I know we all have a different flavor of battle and I’m sure I probably did choose the big emotions one at some point. And that’s okay. I am okay with it but it also feels like a lot sometimes.
I think after quite some time I just have to come to terms with being who I am, where I am, with who I am with, and I just need to stop running away from life itself. It doesn’t really make sense to me that this is the most fantastic plan that we can come up with. But it is effective and there’s something to be said for that I suppose.
I really really am grateful for where we are now though. It feels dreamy to be able to go outside of my house. It’s the best thing for me to be able to just be outside with my kids watching them play or playing catch with them. All of them. For that I am ridiculously grateful.