I started this site to help me focus on things I am grateful for and finding a way to create love and joy in my life when it runs low. It does run low at times. And it’s not my favorite. So learning to create it seemed valuable for when it was running low. I may have been sideways in that approach – it is really more of a benefit to notice the love and joy instead of create it. We really are not creators yet. But we can learn to see the love and joy we have all around us. I’m so amazed by all of my blessings looking back but I would like more to see all the blessings surrounding me. My children … I love them and my family and Alma’s. They all seem so incredible to me. In ways I didn’t quite see before. I don’t know why I’ve let myself get so influenced by outside influences. It really is interesting to learn to balance the inside and outside in a healthy way. This is learned from experience (at least in my life it has been) and it can be really messy during the learning process. It maybe comes from noticing what is the strong inner core that doesn’t change and all the outer parts that can be influenced and to make sure those don’t get mixed up. The inner core parts not to be influenced and the outer parts not be unchanging. It’s been a process of learning to tell stories. I pray often to notice the amazing things still even while appreciating what has already passed. I just want to see more amazing things – fun things – loving and community things – kind things yet in the works and soon to come to pass. It all comes to pass and it’s the enjoying it while it’s passing where the beauty is found. Please please please help us all to notice the beauty we have all around and become strong in noticing the beauty inside and out of each of us. For hope of seeing and feeling more beauty, more peace, more love, more laughter, more community, more cleanliness, more strength, more harmony, more good to come … that is what keeps us going. We can learn to notice more and dream a little less so we can finally enjoy the journey .. this is my hope. Here’s to love peace joy. Thank you mom and dad and family and friends for helping and teaching me so much and continuing to do so. Feeling deep love for beauty (in people or life) is a joy I will always search for – the joy of connection and joy of actual awareness of where we are and what we get to share.